Finally the day is to end and I just thought of re-collecting my learnings from the day ...
He listens - Was thinking to ask Rajkumar ji to help me reach Shrikant ji on Bday. I cudnt even ask this favor and Rajeev ji & Arti ji were made a medium to fulfil my this unspoken desire.
Bglore Rocks - Saints cut birthday cake in Bglore sangat today. Remember Babaji said the utmost desire is that saints love each other as they do to me. Never ever have seen that some one is blessed so much that his/her birthday cake is cut even is he/she isnt in town. That too when no blood relations live in that city. Mystery of His family I must say. Not saying I am important but yes I am blessed.
I still am unlearned - During the days emotions had a zig zag path to follow. Switching from one extreme to another. Rest under 'Parda'. Apologies Babaji, still havent learnt the art of thankfulness, Sweet words, Patience and so many others.
I am idiot - Where ever I am, I fail to see the bliss hidden. Only when I step into next moment I realise the last moment was better. Present is our own....Own ??
Love's still missing - Havent ever understood how the graph moves for Love. Whether it is giving or taking. Allah hi sikha sakta hai mere jaise ko....
There's no place like your room - All day's tiredness vanished like anything as soon as I put on the lights in my room. I saw the untidy room with clothes, bottles lying here and there... but its my own. No place is as sweet as your room. Seemed like am back in the grip of Nirankar. As soothing as this.
Kya Shikaayat Karein Zamaane Se - Hum to khud hain abhi deewane se...Sab kuch to waise ka waise rakha hua hai miyaa...aur chale ho... :-)
Monday, December 17, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Hmm...Itna effort maara likhne ke liye but...
I boarded the train from Swindon for Birmingham which is around 2.5 - 3 hours run including the change time. I was quite thirsty at Swindon Station but wasn’t happy to spend some pounds on water, water which is offered free in Indian stations. I missed India.
Reached Birmingham, was waiting for some friend to arrive when I saw people using vending machines to grab pet of coke. I too had a thirst for 3 hrs then, so somehow I managed and with courage took 1.3 pounds out of my wallet. I put coins in the machine and waited for a sprite bottle to come out. However, there was some problem with the machine; Sprite bottle got struck in middle. I bashed the machine but could not make path for the bottle to come down.
It seemed that God wanted to teach me that don’t miss to enjoy the creations. Anyways, I looked for someone to help but no one was around. Somehow I convinced myself that Sunil, it was for you to spend money but probably the cake wasn’t for you today. You had to pay for some else’s benefit. I moved with a heavy heart trying to digest the learning. After some time came back to same vending machine where a fellow was looking for sprite’s owner. He had managed to take out the bottle somehow. I talked to the person and grabbed my own sprite bottle. Learning came at that moment, don’t worry Sunil what is in your name shall come to you at any cost.
Well these small teachings still have to be imbibed. I often come across virtues that so many saints shared and lived also. However when I analyze I find myself standing nowhere. I do think at times, will reading all those virtues do me a good? It’s good to quote from great books, but am I actually living up to those words. The bliss that is shared in those great books was lived and then scribbled there. And I tend to mention those virtues and get satisfied with my spiritual growth…Scope still is there to grow and feel what is mentioned in those texts.
Sharing from this small incident only, when I will get what’s in store for me, then why does someone else’s growth hurt me? If I want to grow let me make more efforts and excel, why I want to overshadow someone and then say I won. Spiritual life and practical life are one and the same. If feelings inside don’t change, what good would the outer clothes do? A colleague too is thy neighbor whom one needs to love if one thinks of being spiritual. One very beautiful quote I read was,
Pyar inse nafratein unse, yu to sajda adaa nahi hota.
To become a spiritual being, I need to love one and all. Be it in office, be it in house, a soul is a soul and it needs to live with the same virtues. Spiritual living is too simple, and comes in daily living. But then... I need to be open to actually hear who’s trying to call me.
Reached Birmingham, was waiting for some friend to arrive when I saw people using vending machines to grab pet of coke. I too had a thirst for 3 hrs then, so somehow I managed and with courage took 1.3 pounds out of my wallet. I put coins in the machine and waited for a sprite bottle to come out. However, there was some problem with the machine; Sprite bottle got struck in middle. I bashed the machine but could not make path for the bottle to come down.
It seemed that God wanted to teach me that don’t miss to enjoy the creations. Anyways, I looked for someone to help but no one was around. Somehow I convinced myself that Sunil, it was for you to spend money but probably the cake wasn’t for you today. You had to pay for some else’s benefit. I moved with a heavy heart trying to digest the learning. After some time came back to same vending machine where a fellow was looking for sprite’s owner. He had managed to take out the bottle somehow. I talked to the person and grabbed my own sprite bottle. Learning came at that moment, don’t worry Sunil what is in your name shall come to you at any cost.
Well these small teachings still have to be imbibed. I often come across virtues that so many saints shared and lived also. However when I analyze I find myself standing nowhere. I do think at times, will reading all those virtues do me a good? It’s good to quote from great books, but am I actually living up to those words. The bliss that is shared in those great books was lived and then scribbled there. And I tend to mention those virtues and get satisfied with my spiritual growth…Scope still is there to grow and feel what is mentioned in those texts.
Sharing from this small incident only, when I will get what’s in store for me, then why does someone else’s growth hurt me? If I want to grow let me make more efforts and excel, why I want to overshadow someone and then say I won. Spiritual life and practical life are one and the same. If feelings inside don’t change, what good would the outer clothes do? A colleague too is thy neighbor whom one needs to love if one thinks of being spiritual. One very beautiful quote I read was,
Pyar inse nafratein unse, yu to sajda adaa nahi hota.
To become a spiritual being, I need to love one and all. Be it in office, be it in house, a soul is a soul and it needs to live with the same virtues. Spiritual living is too simple, and comes in daily living. But then... I need to be open to actually hear who’s trying to call me.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
10 Kahaaniya
Was just watching this new bollywood movie. Out of 10, one two caught my attention. One was the balloon story where stress was laid on importance of life. Each moment passes by leaving memories. positive negative what ever shape we give to it.
Aise hi soch raha tha ki kuch dino mein hi janam din aane wala hai. Waise koi major craze nahin, but was thinking it as an opportunity to seek time from people. Anyways, agar khushi wale angle se bhi dekh raha tha to ab soch raha hu ki kya sach mein yeh itne saal use ho paaye. No doubt kuch na kuch to seekha hi hoga .. galat sahi pata nahin. But kya wahi max kar sakta tha main. Kya kuch aur karna possible nahin tha ?
Life mein kitne gile leke chal raha hounga, kitno ko mere se gila hoga, pata nahin.. life ek ek moment karke khisakti hai but shayd dhyaan hi nahin jaata is aur ki ek ek pal kam ho gaya. Life kai baar to aise jeete hain jaise sab mere se hi saansein udhar leke gaye hain, zarurat padi to le lenge...
khair gone ka to kuch ho nahin sakta, par maula..yeh kirpa kar.. aage ke swas tere shukar, tere hisab se guzrein....one gift I look from you.
Aise hi soch raha tha ki kuch dino mein hi janam din aane wala hai. Waise koi major craze nahin, but was thinking it as an opportunity to seek time from people. Anyways, agar khushi wale angle se bhi dekh raha tha to ab soch raha hu ki kya sach mein yeh itne saal use ho paaye. No doubt kuch na kuch to seekha hi hoga .. galat sahi pata nahin. But kya wahi max kar sakta tha main. Kya kuch aur karna possible nahin tha ?
Life mein kitne gile leke chal raha hounga, kitno ko mere se gila hoga, pata nahin.. life ek ek moment karke khisakti hai but shayd dhyaan hi nahin jaata is aur ki ek ek pal kam ho gaya. Life kai baar to aise jeete hain jaise sab mere se hi saansein udhar leke gaye hain, zarurat padi to le lenge...
khair gone ka to kuch ho nahin sakta, par maula..yeh kirpa kar.. aage ke swas tere shukar, tere hisab se guzrein....one gift I look from you.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Not Bad Sunil !!
Day & Night, I look for the light
with dreams in my eyes, for times that would be bright.
Day & Night, I long for your sight
I calm them to silence, but silly emotions still fight.
Day & Night, I think on the riverside
There's water already, then why dont these tears hide.
Day & Night, I wait to hug you tight
forgetting who's around, and what's wrong or right.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Watch Man !!!
yesterday i was going through this subway and saw some iron rods lying in an order so that no one can speed up or drive cycle thru... the very first thought in mind was no one's around so why not jump and move ahead but then some how realised this is not India, let me walk as directed and as I moved few more steps, I could see a police officer sitting and observing the passers.
Its normal here that police has cameras placed all over. streets, malls, every where. mind was wondering, if cameras cud be in subway ( rather sab-way) , which i cud not see till i reached a point near officer, why isnt it possible that to believe god too is watching us and everything I do can be seen and is being noted ? Well until one meets guru or the officer, one cannot see this watch man but yes it doesnt mean no watches ..
well , time time ki baat hai... india nahin :-)
Its normal here that police has cameras placed all over. streets, malls, every where. mind was wondering, if cameras cud be in subway ( rather sab-way) , which i cud not see till i reached a point near officer, why isnt it possible that to believe god too is watching us and everything I do can be seen and is being noted ? Well until one meets guru or the officer, one cannot see this watch man but yes it doesnt mean no watches ..
well , time time ki baat hai... india nahin :-)
Sunday, November 25, 2007
दिल्ली दूर है?
Its almost a week now, since I landed in UK. Journey so far has been mixed sort. Neither too good nor too bad. I can recall the first day’s feel which seems to be alive, “ Wasn’t worth keeping a dream in mind”. All those onsite talks, and movie scenes that gave me a sigh, I feel I cud have lived better. Anyways, some things are learnt better after seeing. Don’t know why but I think, a travel outside wasn’t for me but may be my dreams made Him draw lines for me. Thanks Babaji. Apologies if my desires weren’t as per your earlier plans.
Each day seems to go without having learnt the basic teaching of thankfulness. Coming here was a dream. And even after landing here, there’s lot more in dreams. No thanks for what got fulfilled. Bakshna.
No matter what little I believe or talk, there’s so much that has been bestowed when it comes to blessings from you. Everything when it comes, there’s something new to look upon. Don’t know why but humans were created to dream. May be for growth. Growth but what kind of ?
Why don’t I dream of learning thankfulness. Of loving all. Of being broadminded. There’s so much to learn, and I seem to ignore and move ahead. May be there’s lack of efforts from my side, but I do believe that this efforts too can come only if you say yes to them. All those parables you talk, don’t arise until you make them happen. You agree or disagree or what ever you convey, you are smart enough to astonish people like me.
Babaji, aap to maalik ho. Mere jaise ko bhi baksh lo. Abhi nahi sikha kisi ko bakshna but aap karwao to karwa hi loge mere jaise se bhi. Itni iccha hoti hai sabse pyaar karne ki, itna aap dete bhi ho but shayd abhi bhi kisi ko dena nahin aaya. Aap pakade rakho, aapka bharosa to hai but pata nahin kabhi kabhi dar lagta hai..
Each day seems to go without having learnt the basic teaching of thankfulness. Coming here was a dream. And even after landing here, there’s lot more in dreams. No thanks for what got fulfilled. Bakshna.
No matter what little I believe or talk, there’s so much that has been bestowed when it comes to blessings from you. Everything when it comes, there’s something new to look upon. Don’t know why but humans were created to dream. May be for growth. Growth but what kind of ?
Why don’t I dream of learning thankfulness. Of loving all. Of being broadminded. There’s so much to learn, and I seem to ignore and move ahead. May be there’s lack of efforts from my side, but I do believe that this efforts too can come only if you say yes to them. All those parables you talk, don’t arise until you make them happen. You agree or disagree or what ever you convey, you are smart enough to astonish people like me.
Babaji, aap to maalik ho. Mere jaise ko bhi baksh lo. Abhi nahi sikha kisi ko bakshna but aap karwao to karwa hi loge mere jaise se bhi. Itni iccha hoti hai sabse pyaar karne ki, itna aap dete bhi ho but shayd abhi bhi kisi ko dena nahin aaya. Aap pakade rakho, aapka bharosa to hai but pata nahin kabhi kabhi dar lagta hai..
Monday, November 5, 2007
I-LAND
is-land :something resembling an island, esp. in being isolated or having little or no direct communication with others.
Was just wondering today the beauty of word "Island" ; Island refers to isolated land with no direct communication with others, the 's' being silent in this. If we remove 's' from Island and it becomes 'I-land', the way it is pronounced.
Isnt the scene same, when I live in my own land ? Not caring about any one else's emotions. At that very moment, I am 'I' and am away, isolated from rest of the world. Totally cutoff from rest of the lands aka people.
Very rightly is the land pronounced "I(s)land", ie not connected with the rest of the lands.
Was just wondering today the beauty of word "Island" ; Island refers to isolated land with no direct communication with others, the 's' being silent in this. If we remove 's' from Island and it becomes 'I-land', the way it is pronounced.
Isnt the scene same, when I live in my own land ? Not caring about any one else's emotions. At that very moment, I am 'I' and am away, isolated from rest of the world. Totally cutoff from rest of the lands aka people.
Very rightly is the land pronounced "I(s)land", ie not connected with the rest of the lands.
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